Psychopathia sexualis: With especial reference to contrary sexual instinct

1. Masochism, according to my experience, is, under all circumstances,

congenital, and never acquired by the individual. I know positively that I was never spanked; that my masochistic ideas were manifested from my earliest youth; and that, as long as I have been capable of thinking, I have had such thoughts. If the origin of them had been the result of a particular event, especially of a beating, I should certainly not have forgotten it. It is characteristic that the ideas were present before there was any libido. At that time the ideas were absolutely sexless. I remember that, when a boy, it affected (not to say excited) me intensely when an older boy addressed me in the second person (_Du_), while I spoke to him in the third (_Sie_). I would keep up a conversation with him, and have the exchange of address take place as often as possible. Later, when I had become more mature sexually, such things affected me only when they occurred with a married woman, and one relatively old.